There are hard decisions up ahead. So many bubbling questions that I’m trying to push away from my mind. Questions like, will I return to work? If so, will I work full or part time? In either case, who will care for our little bug?
I have no clue.
I have pretty strong feelings about my job situation now which is an entirely separate post.
But would I love to stay home and care for my baby 24-7? Yes. I think? Or would I be ready for some balance between adult work life part time and then motherhood part time? Maybe. Or perhaps I want to get back to my career full time even though I want to make some big changes in that department (don’t ask what).
So to get the ball rolling, I contacted a daycare yesterday. Their site was impressive. The woman, responsive. I read about their activities, daily schedule, nap times, snacks.
I got jealous. Who was this stranger and why was I going to let her be with my baby during the very early stages of the little bug’s life? What if I missed something like a giggle or a first step?
My mother has graciously offered her services for one work day a week. Beyond that, I’m at a loss. But I do know that come maternity leave time, I don’t want to feel stuck. I want a plan. And daycares? Have waiting lists now. Which means I have to get on the stick.
I didn’t think I’d have answers to what I want to do regarding work and daycare by the time I finished writing this, but I feel better knowing I’m at least letting the thinking happen.
Yes, there is much thinking to do.
itsy bitsy mama
***Sorry, I realized I still haven’t taken/posted a belly shot–promise that it’s coming!!!
******Oh, and? I could go for an onion bagel toasted with veggie cream cheese. Thanks.